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WHAT IS LOVEE BABY DONT HURT ME [03 Oct 2004|12:08pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | the employment pages - death cab ] great night last night. nintendo party '04 i wish i had pictures, unfortunately we forgot to check and see if the memory card was in. adorable. after about an hour of playing nintendo maybe two hours...we took a break. we being colin jean allison amy sonja and i. we started playing with my ipod which id hooked up to speakers while i was cleaning. we inevitably found our ways to "what is love" you know the techno song from night at the roxbury. what is love, baby dont hurt me, dont hurt me, no more. yes so of course, we had to have a rave. yeah so it consisted of random light setting, everyone dancing like fools, and someone working the light switch like there was no tomorrow. hells yea. i love youth, though ill probably be doing this until my early thirties. i was thinking about seattle the other day...maybe that's where i'll go to college. no ive never been there, but i love it despite. im kinda sad today. i need someone but uh i dont know who. i dont know i think im jsut lonely...really lonely i think im gonna start a private journal for jsut me. bye. +++

can you tell me why you've been soooo sad? [26 Sep 2004|07:24pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | art is hard - cursive ] here's to new lust interests and deep deep desire oh man. this weekend was boss. loved it. except the fact that my pillows / clothes REEEEK of virginia slims. that could be better. anyone who is weird and happens to read the william patterson newspaper, look out for alison and colin and me cause we're in it! and so are amy and sonja, but not their names. they thought we kicked ass cause we were at the cafe eclectic and being awesome. that was a great night. we should all rent one big aparetment in montclair. sexual. hahah we could be like the real world. yes, yes we could. friday was also awesome. gotta love the mountain of fuji. im reading animal farm. it kicks ass. rocking my bank of new york shirt. hot and sexy hot and sexy hot and sexy. sex me up. you know you love it. +++

salvation waits at ocean shore, we wont have to lie no more [23 Sep 2004|06:22pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | caring is creepy - the shins ] oh joyous day. +++

please leave my brain alone. [22 Sep 2004|07:11pm] [ mood | rejected ] [ music | soundtrack to our movie - mae ] you break my heart a little bit every day. believe me. it adds up. i reallly dont know whats going on. i keep choking the words back. im scared of what they're going to end up being. do i like you? do i hate you? shit...do i love you? what if i loved you? what would happen? nothing? i dont know. i jstu know im sick and im hurting and im really unhappy right now. sorry to get all gay typical LJ on your asses but i just need to. maybe it's just cause i knwo we could be fantastic together. or could we? i dont know. i jsut dont know anything. i haet this unsure feeling it drives me insane. im going crazy. all i want to do is cry my eyes out while yo uhold me. but itll never happen. it never works. well do you get it in a minute, i could go play the fool for you well i'm a wreck. i really can't explain it but i hear the music when i look at you. orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment well, i'm so in love with you. i'll take a chance and steal away this movie moment i'm in deep whenever i'm with you i'm directing the scene that has you and me forever well, i'm so in love with... +++

why would you do it!? hahaha [20 Sep 2004|10:11pm] oh no, it's you again. knocking incessently at my brain. shut up. i dont even know what you want. i dont like you, so why can i not stop thinking of you? what is this madness? get out of my brain get out of my brain get out of my brain get out to my brain. in totally seperate news im never going ot be able to eat marinara sauce again. thanks. hahahaha +++

LJ updates are for the brokenhearted [20 Sep 2004|06:29pm] [ mood | sad ] is there a sound when your heart breaks? cause the familiar pound has been echoing thru my rib cage all day. i am jack's emotional fury. to the only boy ive ever loved; im at a loss for words: every thing you do kills me. you're words are the knife in my back. take back all your stupid kisses and i love yous. you didnt mean your half. i think i might just hate you. you dont have to make sense when you're sad. +++

this wont be the last you hear from me [19 Sep 2004|08:03pm] minutes slip to hours slip to days slip to minutes slip to hours slip to days to months to hours to months to minutes. to minutes. to minutes. to minutes. to minutes. to minutes. too many. there's nothing i can do to change the words you said to me but there must be something i can do to stop you from meaning them. +++

oh boy what have i done [19 Sep 2004|07:58pm] the phone rings, with relentless echoes i might add a stab of jealousy between her throat and heart this has gone much too far. i wish i were at liberty to say but the time is not now the words are not here. +++

i dont get many things right the first time [19 Sep 2004|01:50am] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | the luckiest - ben folds ] random bursts of crying. odd? i do think so. oh well, joy to the world, minus beak...haha i dont know whats with me i have nothing better to do than write in this thing. if i do any more coloring i think ill kill myself. or get carpel tunnel i dont really care about the correct spelling of that. ill just call it carpet termites. thats close enough. anyone wanna burn me a cd? i feel liek getting a cd. im sad because people dont make mix tapes anymore. i always wanted a guy to make me a mix tape. my mom told me my daddy used to make her mix tapes and theyd be "songs about mary" or they'd just be like "blue" or "green" i find my father very cosmic, for once i believe i wasnt adopted. hahah then i went upstairs and looked at my "rain" and "laughter" cd's and i was like, my dad and i are one and the same. i havent spent time with him lately. i miss him. he's great. new topic...the untied shoe laces of your lifeeeee...i love that line. my life is like untied shoelaces. yes is it. beak needs a boy hahaha im aware of the 3 people who read this (hey amy , how ya been arielle?, whats up jamie?) soooo i can sound pathetic. it sucks being the omega virgin. sucks a lot. actually, it sucks nothing. hahahah nice joke beak. yeah. i am fucking sick of it hahahahaha use me. abuse me. i aint yo average groupie. haha just kidding. im lonely =( so lonely... 2 cmnt +++

did somebody take your tongue? [19 Sep 2004|01:31am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | ugly moon - communique ] for my entire LJ experience i thought that that little icon guy, was a mouse wearing a t-shit. forever. today i am told it is a hamster with a white spot. what a sham. i'll never be the same. damn you. DAMN YOU. here i am, applauding its intelligence for creating a shirt in it's own size and being able to exemplify whatever mood i am feeling but no. its just a sham. hes just a fake. since im now pissed at thi thing, we'll go back and make fun of it alot. 04 Jul 2004 -> he needs corrective glasses. it's not humorous to make fun of lazy eyes. 10 Jul 2004 -> when im distressed, i generally do not dance/ flail my arms about. then again im not a hamster. 18 Jul 2004 -> as opposed to distressed, crushed put on an immense amount of weight, fatty ---for those who are not technologically savvy, you have to hit the earlier link on the bottom--- 21 Jul 2004 -> stressed? no, thats that stupid dance again. stop trying to make that work. it doesn't. 25 Jul 2004 -> ditzy does not = fat + blushing, no it does not. this is retarded. this rodent is retarded. 25 Jul 2004 -> bored looks constipated. that's just a fact. 25 Jul 2004 -> how many fucking entries did i do this day? 26 Jul 2004 -> jubilant. way too anime for his ass. 11 Sep 2004 -> accomplsihed? more like exclamtory. learn your adjectives or find a new day job. 11 Sep 2004 -> thats not bouncy, idiot. that's flippy. you think you'd know this, seeing as this is your profession. 11 Sep 2004 -> i think i may actually make that face in real life. 11 Sep 2004 -> when im chipper do my eye's turn into apostrophe's? 12 Sep 2004 -> nostalgic i guess = stupid. because when i see that, i think stupid. 14 Sep 2004 -> unnacceptable. not everyone's thought are written in bubbles above their heads, otherwise it would be earier to cheat on tests. 17 Sep 2004 -> those dont look like eyes, they look like marbles. stupid marble face. 18 Sep 2004 > gloomy = poor weather conditions? no? well, that's not what my little hamster showed me. 19 Sep 2004 -> possibly the very worst, is it fucked up? WHAT IS IT DOINGGG?!!!!!11111ONE ONE ONE +++

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